Teenage Dreams Crushed
I'm big on synchronicity, and believe it's no coincidence that my first post was scheduled for this date.
Today is the one year anniversary of the death of actor, artist and my teenage crush, Corey Haim. I hope, as this is my first post here at The Pop Culture Divas, my openness gives you some insight as to who I am...as a person, not as an author.
It's strange how we can grieve for people we've never met before, at least not in reality. Corey is one of those people for me. Perhaps it's because I spent most of my teenage years getting to know him in various movies and gossip girl type articles in magazines. I used to subscribe to a magazine called Young Americans. Not for the stories, but for the amazing head shots of the stars I crushed on; River Phoenix, Corey Haim and Keanu Reeves. It's tragic that both River and Corey's life ended too soon. (I was young when River died, and watching a news broadcast sharing how he died outside The Viper Room, Hollywood, tore me to pieces.
My 'love affair' with Corey began, like many fellow Corey appreciators I know, with the movie The Lost Boys. It was his cute smile and cheeky remarks. From then on, my bedroom was plastered with his face; on my wall, cupboards (closets) and even my ceiling! Every night, I'd turn over to go to sleep, and see his face. That image instigated many daydream moments of when we would accidentally meet. It would be instant love, of course, and those fantasies lulled me to sleep many nights over. I even wanted the same batman tattoo as him, so I could feel closer to him. So, yes, in my little teenage world, we knew each other. Or at least, I knew my version of him that I had made up in my head.
I watched all his movies, regardless of the 'not so great' reviews, and loved them anyway...just because he was in them. And then I grew up, found real love, and didn't think of him for a long time. I wasn't a teenager anymore, so I guess we kinda broke up from the teenage crush status.
When I moved to the States with my husband and children, I was thrilled to see Corey had a new show,The Two Coreys, with his Lost Boys co-star and long time friend, Corey Feldman. I thought, yeay, he's having a come back; he's all better, and he looks great! As the show progressed, it became clear something was amiss. I got more and more concerned for him, as a friend would. I wanted to write to him, share my worry for his well being. But I didn't, figured that was a numpty fan-girl thing to do. Now, I wish I had. Not that it would have changed anything, but it might have made me feel better knowing I'd at least tried to do something to help.
When I saw the episodes that covered the filming of The Lost Boys: The Tribe, I knew it was over for him. He was really struggling with life and seemed like he was lost. I didn't expect him to die, though, especially when his career seemed to have turned around with new movie projects. Hearing the news of his passing sent my heart plummeting as if a dear friend had just died. I shed a tear, and felt glum for weeks after.
From following his career so closely, he really was a dear friend. Although he never knew me, I knew him. Rest in peace, dear Corey.
I hand this over to the comments box now, and to you. Who was your teenage crush, and what is he/she doing now? Does he/she affect you the same way they did all those years ago? Would you grieve for them?
Corey's official site, movies and his art: www.coreyhaim.us
Corey's movie backlist, IMDb
Image from The Two Coreys - A& E